Tuesday, April 12, 2011
A Whole Month!
Robby and I have been married a whole month now! How crazy is that?!? I love him so much. He's so wonderful to me -- even when I really don't derserve it. Like last night: We were laying in bed last night and I wasn't really tired so I was just talking to Robby as he was falling asleep. One minute everything was fine and we were haveing fun and the next I could feel myself getting sad and frustrated and angry. And out of nowhere I just started bawling. I had no reason -- absolutely no reason -- to have been acting this way and I felt ridiculous which only made me cry harder. Robby was so sweet and patient with me and I just felt like a jerk but I couldn't help it. No matter what I did, I couldn't stop crying. It took me an hour before I could control myself again. I just kept thinking: "What's wrong with me? This isn't normal! How can Robby love me when I'm such an idiot?" And this is like the 3rd time this has happened since we got married. What IS wrong with me? And yet he just held me until I could pull it together. I love him so much. I hope someday I can pull myself together. This is just a stab in the dark, but I'm betting it's the birth control. :(
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Don't worry things will balance out :) the first couple of months of birth control are a pain, but I felt like I was back to normal after that.
ReplyDeleteI'd blame the birth control, too. I went through a rollercoaster of emotions with my first birth control. If it keeps making you feel crazy, feel free to switch to something new. My second BC made me feel much better than my first. Don't sweat it. Sometimes a good cry is just needed...even if we don't know why we're crying.
ReplyDeletei bet its the birth control, is it your first month on it? i usually have to have it in my system for 2 - 3 months before my body balances out.
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